Friday, October 31, 2008

compass

not so hot tonite baby
the light is green yet there's no answer
so i sit here at this keyboard
and gut my sorrow's flights of fancy

i miss you oh so terribly
trina find an answer is this quest
either way i head for trouble
heartache on my heels; this life's a mess

the universe has turned on me
too many missteps, in too deep and woe is me
what have i done, where am i headed
trippin over judgements, choices, inner voices, me

nowhere to go but sinking
i took off downward strolling
i've been under far too long
my tolerance for light is gone

senses falter in this darkness
can't tell which way is down, which way is up
i've been on autopilot since forever
didn't notice how far into it i got
into hurt i never sought

the universe has turned on us
too many missteps, in too deep and woe is me
what have i done, where am i headed
trippin over judgements, choices, inner voices, me

misty shine found lodging in my eyes
my head rests in hands, gaze down, lids half mast
ain't kidding myself no kidding
complication's here and alls wrong at long last

the universe has turned on me
another misstep, failed attempt and woe is me
what i've done, where am i headed
trippin over judgements, choices, inner voices, me

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

sweet reaper

another bottle of wine
another sleepless night
anxious anticipation
fear, inadequacy and yearning
i combine in my perception
of pearly greens
that witness
from afar
mysterious delight

you're the reaper
come to collect
come to slice and withdraw
scalpel in hand
to remove, to cast anew

i teeter on the edge of words
on the edge of night and day
on the edge, period.
on the verge.

the rivers, the pour
my people have gathered
to witness the passing
to bid farewell
goodbye to the past
to that who i was and cannot be back
broken in burgundy blood
and progressing down my throat
a slit, a slash, in reverse

will that falters
will it will itself into action
will it willingly give
take no more, but GIVE
on both feet, facing the block
willingly surrendering for freedom's sake
for pete's sake
for crissakes

the reaper has come
only a minute's respite and
the fiddler, time to face
yin-yang is my face
confused
contorted
in a grimace of blissful pain
frozen in contradiction
is that a smirk?
tick-tocking away
no time to waste

Monday, October 27, 2008

lost and found

it was there
i found it again
i opened the door and happened upon it
a lost keepsake tucked away in the attic
a gate that swung open, threshold crossed, and there it was,
waiting, waving, warm
as then
as always

what joy
notes written so long ago still find their rhythm
still retain their rhyme and slowly segue into my lips and i know the tune
once again

thought it had drifted
my my, sweet surprise
it was there all along
waiting, waving, warm
all along

J's top five - day one

So, up until today the totality of the content in this blog was poetry, but I feel the time has come to diversify my rantings into broader fare, if only for purely self-indulging motivations. Therefore, and as an attempt to share the joy, I have decided to post a short, periodical list of worthwhile musique for all ye who would/might care. Since this is the first time I do this, I should explain a couple of things. First, I don't ascribe to any one particular music genre; although readers will find that I am partial to loud, sometimes obnoxious rock variations, these entries will feature tunes from a varied, eclectic, yet fiercely personal selection. Those that happen upon these postings are more than welcome to comment, and more importantly, make musical suggestions. I love checking new tunes from all corners of the globe.

Second, the criteria I use to pick the lucky selections are as follows:
1. lyrical - since I tout myself as a writer, at the top of my list are songs that have what I deem "good lyrics." This means that they feel original, well-crafted and thoughtful, including the grim, good-natured, humorous and so on.
2. atmospheric - it "feels" good, whatever that may be at the time. I tend to look for originality here too, although I may tend to be repetitive - a bit paradoxical, I know, but excuse me if that happens. For the more technical-minds, that may mean modal compositions, odd time signatures, creative instrumentation, dissonance and tension, artistic mixing, etc.
3. virtuosity - 'nuff said there, right?
4. all of the above - sometimes things just come together.
...And last but not least,
5. guilty pleasures - c'mon, everyone has their own little skeletons in the closet. judge not and ye shall not be judged.

Ok, so without further ado, this submission's Top Five are:


5. Afro Blue - Lizz Wright (from Salt - 2003). Jazzy stylings I dedicate to a friend with whom I wanted to share this song for a while. To be perfectly honest, I find that jazz has a tendency to repeat itself. Yes, the players can play, but swing?, dominant chords?; aesthetically it bores me a bit. There. I've said it. Sorry to all o y'all I've offended. However, there are times when I come across something that I find to be a welcome departure, and this is one of them, which I choose mostly for its mysteriously suggestive vibe. In terms of instrumentation, it is based mostly on a typical acousticg guitar-piano-stand up bass-drums-singer quintet format, but add to it some cool afro/latin percussion, and some horn accents, and a little gem is born. Did I get corny there? I could put this one on repeat for a day or too and still be grooving, what can I say?


4. Still on the jazz tip, we have Oh God by Jamie Cullum (Catching Tales - 2005). I can't give him props for originality here - this sounds like he got Take Five by Dave Brubeck and put lyrics to it. However, the result is quite artistic and satisfying. I find myself singing backups to the chorus. It's another one I could put on repeat, and just jam. As a little additional entry here, check Catch the Sun from the same album: a beauty.


3. Let's go to Africa, yes? Camions Sauvages by Amadou et Mariam (Dimanche a Bamako - 2005) features in at number three. This is a sweet collaboration between the blind couple from Mali and famous Spanish/French singer-songwriter Manu Chao, who, BTW, produced the record. So we're talking Africa meets South America meets Europe. This particular ditty is in French, so I can't comment about the lyrical artistry, but it's one of those where the music builds in layer after layer over a constant chord structure, in typical African fashion. I can say the title means Savage Trucks, and I can feel the grit of the dirt roads, as they get the motor running, get out on the highway, and cruise at a fast steady pace on remote routes cutting through the savannah, each new part, a new face in the blur of the landscape - unbelievable snap shots of the savage heart of L'Afrique.


2. For the last two, we move into my area of expertise, my love, my passion, my inescapable compulsion: rock music. For this first-ever number two (hahaha, very funny), I turn to one of my present favorite artists. I've always dug his shit, pardon my directness. What I find particularly special is the evolution he's had over the years: he has progressed in exactly the way I'd hoped for. More than an evolution, it has been a polishing, a tasteful development - a weird moment to be in, though. I had a similar sensation the first time I heard Stadium Arcadium by Red Hot Chili Peppers, this thought that they had somehow come into their own. But at the same time, somehow, that cd made a very light and ephemeral impact on me that maybe lasted for a week. That hasn't happened to me with this guy, though, and I am curious about what will come next. I'm referring to Trent Reznor and Nine Inch Nails. From their (his) CD Year Zero (2007), I'd like to highlight The Good Soldier. It somehow underlines this evolutionary process I sense in Reznor's work - one I think really began solidifying on With Teeth (2005) and has progress into 2008's The Slip. All the NIN elements are there, but they are combined in the right measure. Nothing is missing and nothing is overdone... The atmospheric work is flawless: every part flows to and from each other in a delicately subtle sonic statement. The lead guitar lick at the end is just so spot on: truly tasteful, each note is the perfect one, at the right time and the right timbre. Plus, the lyrics are - although not the most memorable ones he's written - also right on: an ironic/authentic commentary on the war on Iraq and the religious/hegemonic rhetoric behind it. Fuckin A!


1. Ok - and so we arrive at this entry's number one: drum-roll please. The honor falls to Forever Can Be by Ashes Divide. It really is one of my faves from the past months. Following his inspired work as composer and guitarist for A Perfect Circle, Billy Howerdel outdoes himself with this ditty off the band's debut CD (Keep Telling Myself It's Alright - 2008). Like in APC, the production work is just outstanding - an orgasmic combination of simple yet enormously rich guitar work. The virtuosity comes in the combination of non-pretentious counterparts that fill the space of the song in a flowing mid-tempo that creates a crisply engulfing landscape for some of his best vocal work yet. The lead melody is just beautiful - what can I say folks? - and the lyrics, melancholy and assertive in a delicate way, seem to let you in slowly and then just grab hold. For further gems on this record, check Denial Waits and Enemies.

And so concludes this, my first entry in this kind of format. Like with all the others, I welcome comments: go crazy and put in your two cents, but mostly, I reiterate my invitation to open up the forum to new music - I will positively appreciate whatever new ditty you can contribute.

Stay tuned for the next one.