Goodbye

What do you know when you say
There is beauty in a broken heart
What do you know of the pain and the violence
Tears on a paper can pull at your heart strings
But can you really say you've seen the look inside those eyes

Are you ready now
Do we pull the plug
Do we stand, wish farewell as our boat sets sail
Hold my hand once more
Just for old times’ sake
Until the truth sets in

Could you stand it if you looked in my eyes
And never again saw
The tenderness I held inside. within
Could you be ok if never again
My lips would rest on yours
To draw out one collective breath of life

Are you ready now
Do we say goodbye
Lonely witnesses watching our boat depart
Is your mind made up
Have you closed the door
Did you cross the line

Is that hatred I see in your eyes
Is the pain that I cause unforgivable
Is the anger within us too great
Like a wave engulfing everything
Do we ride this train all the way
Right to the tragic end

Are you ready now
do we dive right in
Better swallow this bitter drink quickly
On the count of three
Last time you and me
One step taken no turning back

All pride has left me
No spite inside me
The reasons fail me
I’m so sorry
All pride has left me
No spite inside me
The reasons fail me
I’m so sorry, are you

withered

i'm here while you're there
whilst the devil may care
while our weary way
wastes away,
wears away at the will,
withers and wanes

warped is this wasteland
wicked is the wind that wafts to me whimpering
loud is the wailing and weeping
the boughs of the willow hang low
the eyelids won't waken
the waited-for words won't be whispered
not ever, not now

alas, for these dwindling wisps of hope

all the while wishing,
walled-in and war torn
to be weaned of worries wounded,
downcast and forlorn,
to walk and not wallow,
for woes that won't follow,
the whims of this world 'way to go
but they won't, no they won't
but i will
wake no more to wonder,
wander wanton,
down trails always winding,
forgotten,
to weightlessly wait
till the weakness pervading
withdraws its inevitable toll

the waves of the oceans are gaining
the waxing moon soon'll be full
wild-eyed in this wilderness,
away whatever i've witnessed
whomever i found,
the wares on my shoulders weigh heavy
the shackles, wrists, ankles so worn
come are the waters of winter
to drown; dissolved in the wake no more frown
for one sweet blessed moment
as i’m swallowed i feel i’m reborn

Cloudy Day

cloudy day now my love's away
it thins and drifts and vanishes
it fades away
the final wisps are lost to entropy
the leaves all fallen
there's no more canopy

Sojourn

look out across this new landscape
reasons to look back on seasons
no chance to escape
the wind that delivered me here
stirs the leaves of the firs as i wake

and so begins a new chapter
the sojourn in this cold, remote vastness
the lushness of contrast
of life, death and anger
that mirrors within me: deep inner sadness

all that inspires has shifted its meaning
as i try to brace for the swift coming whirlwind
the summers, the winters all roll into one
like frail variations of light and of darkness

i am the bearer of blindness
mine is the torture of stubbornness
all in the guise of adaptive behavior
but down in the core no acceptance, no savior

pouting little baby
forlorn saddened child
grow out of your sense of entitlement
mind, it's in balance you run free and wild
awake!
the eyes of the world are upon us
the weight and the karma of waiting
in the wielding of our tools are thus tempered
remember the struggle, the cause, no pause for us

together you and i must give rise to a new being
give birth to a soul that can take it all in
not to wallow and perish, our sense overwhelmed
but to marvel in awe at the whole

an awesome wave rider
poised on the crest
descending full blast
ecstatic in spray
the roaring surrounds us
the coming of hell
and of heaven
in one single moment
our prowess to tell

so begins a new chapter
the promise of time: to move on
onward, the path long and open
our purpose, our only control
the intention to ride is what matters
no matter whatever unfolds
come what may the truth is ever to answer
the summons that tug at our core
for now
and forever more

Showers

the orange clouds raining in my head...
- tori amos

the showers come straight down
they splash on your face
on your neck, all around
showers splash shoulders
on your back they repose
showers of amber the songs they compose

showers i see and they're dark and they cover
showers i taste and the taste leaves me sour
showers like rain drench the seedlings and flowers
showers that flow to the well of desire

one drop, one pure cellular spell
of the many you wield on your quest to devour
or maybe i'm vain to think you would discover
such minute trivialities: wishes of lovers
too piercing its power too timid to tell
too fragile and airy too late to foretell
the past and the future all melt in your gaze
and the showers keep falling, i dip in your well

showers adorned with the kindness of willing
showers, as much as i try drops keep spilling
showers i long for, the summer is coming
showers, the sun bears the curse of forgetting
the minutes are ticking, the sidewalk is naked
the drops have all vanished, the torrents are empty
the showers of spring won't return till it's winter
promises fade and who knows what will whisper

maybe the blessed
cascading drops
my memory comes all alive with the thought
of a fleeting glance, of a sidewalk encounter
the heart all a-flutter, the sputter, the stutter
of raindrops of showers of amber
so somber
calm is the summer, the corner that blocks
your sight, oh so tender
demise that i mourn
this time
it's my eyes from where showers will fall